Client Tracking Software

Is there hope for me in programming?

I have done this, but ended it after 4 yrs exp in 2003: •Provided phone support at help desk for first year before moving to programming. •Created programs to process and report inbound/outbound data transfers from clients for new business, client payments, agency payments, demographic updates, account closures and returns, reconciliation, and status changes. •Analyzed software requirements to determine design within time and system limitations. •Conferred with data processing and project managers to obtain capabilities for projects. •Participated in an on-call rotation for issues exceeding normal working hours. •Experience gained on a Dec Alpha (VAX) Mainframe with a VMS operating system. Programmed in basic utilizing flat file databases or embedded SQL with Oracle. I would like to add, that I can't stand the politics. I went the opposite way after this experience, and now my $$$ has only gone downhill. I don't care if the money is gone, I really just want to do, you know, easy things....but I can't get a job. I will say, that when I programmed, I loved it, I was even told by my SR programmer to socialize more. but I couldn't......I was told by my boss programmers that they would give me a reference, but i never accepted it because I don't like talking to people. the whole time I was there I did about 10X the work that other programmers did, and I was always upset that they had a college degree and was asking me questions. I am paranoid and I count everything. I must have a disability but since I worked like this for so long I can't apply for disability. and now I only know c and basic languages, with only exp in basic on a dec alpha mainframe for 4 yrs, but that is old stuff.....I've been writing programs since the 1st grade when i write a guessing game program on a apple computer, yet i am too messed up to get a job (if i had the job i'd do it fine), I HATE PEOPLE THAT GET DEGREES IN PROGRAMMING, AND SUCCEED WHEN I HELPED THEM THE WHOLE TIME I ACTUALLY DID SOMETHING IN LIFE BECAUSE I LIKE TO HELP PEOPLE JUST TO FIND OUT THAT PEOPLE ABOVE ME GET ON MY NERVES AND I CAN'T TAKE IT AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO GET A JOB WHEN MY CODE WAS ALL OVER THE PLACE AND DOING WELL, THEY RE-HIRED ME AFTER 1 YEAR FOR $10,000 MORE BEFORE LAID OFF AGAIN BECAUSE THE CO WAS SOLD AND I AM ALWAYS QUITE WITH PEOPLE BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WHY CAN I DO SOMETHING SO WELL, BUT PEOPLE ALWAYS GET IN THE WAY, I CAN'T FIND A JOB SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME

Public Comments

1. Try making a program that everyone else wants but can't make. That way when you get employed your employer and everyone else will have respect for you. Or you could just work alone. Trust me its A LOT better.
2. yes there is hope just take time to relax and reflex